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Shouldering The Burden

So, I haven’t written in a couple weeks.

I started a Valentine’s Day post, but couldn’t make it work. I was trying to be funny about being diagnosed 8 years ago on Valentine’s Day, but it ended up as kind of a dark post and that wasn’t what I wanted. I’m sure there will be plenty of those, but I didn’t want to go that route on the 14th.

Next, I had a swallowing study and a visit with the speech therapist. Yeah, multiple sclerosis doesn’t stop with arm and leg muscles, so I’ve been choking more and more and having a weak cough doesn’t help clear my airway when I aspirate stuff. Of course I didn’t choke once during the barium swallow, so other than the barium drinks and coated snacks, including half of a cookie, it wasn’t a super productive experience. I did get a little device to strengthen my expiratory muscles so I can cough, etc forcefully. It’s a nifty little exhalation resistance device and seems to be working well. If it made trumpet, slide whistle, or whoopee cushion sounds (I have 3 little boys), it would be just about perfect.

A couple days later it was MRI time. My annual brain one (no new or active lesions) and both shoulders (not great reports, but I’ll get to that). I’m not claustrophobic and my hearing isn’t great, so as long as I have well placed ear plugs, I just go to sleep in there. I had planned on one long scan (and nap), but for a variety of reasons, they treated each body part as if it belonged to a different person and I had 3 scans with about 30 minutes in between.

My implanted baclofen pump is MRI safe and shuts itself off when it detects the magnetic field, then back on 10 minutes after it no longer detects it. Between MRI 1 and 2, I stayed in the MRI suite and apparently didn’t get far enough away, so the pump stayed off long enough to set off the alarm. It was the 2 tone, critical alarm, which sounds a bit like a European ambulance, and coincidentally, like any number of hospital alarms, so I didn’t even notice until I left to grab lunch before MRI 3. I was actually in the restroom when I realized that the beeping was coming from me. I noted the time and sure enough, it went off again 10 minutes later and 10 minutes after that and so on.

One of those times was in an elevator and the other passengers started to look around for the source of what was obviously an alarm before all turning to look at me. No one said anything, but you know it was just the embarrassment of having to ask if I was beeping that stopped them. I felt like a person compelled by shame to confess to farting on an elevator, “OK, it was me! That awful sound came out of me!!”.

None of us said anything, but I probably looked guilty enough that everyone knew it anyway. The perfect scenario would have been if someone had worked up the courage to ask and I had the wherewithal to stare back,wide eyed, and hoarsely whisper/croak, “Oh no!! Run!! Save yourselves!!”.

Then again, I bet the penalty for causing a panic on a Veteran’s Affairs hospital elevator is pretty stiff.

I haven’t completely lost my touch. The MRI techs were a little nervous about my pump anyway, so when I told them the alarm was going off, there was a little hand wringing and they wanted to know if they should do something, or call someone. I kept a nice, straight face and told them I was meeting the pump rep after the 3rd MRI anyway (standard procedure) and probably wouldn’t explode for an hour at least. This didn’t ease their minds at all, but my smirk was probably big enough to be seen on my head/brain scan.

Both are MRI images of my right shoulder

OK, I’ve digressed enough. My shoulders are not good….well the right one in particular. Both have been dislocated in the past, the left, just once, in the parachute incident I wrote about before and the right about 3 times, in way less exciting incidents. I knew the right one was getting worse but ignored it and had my bad knee and ankle fixed instead because they were my more important, weight bearing, joints…..right?

MS, thy name is irony,……or maybe mean spirited coincidence? I’m not sure how that works, but I am sure that turning my arms into my weight bearing, wheelchair using, transferring, etc, limbs, is just making my shoulder problems worse. I’ll post the MRI report at the end of this post, but the impression I get is that we’re past the point of more rehab and probably past the point of steroid injections too.

I’m afraid of what the ortho doc is going to say, but I guess it’s because I know what he, or she is going to say. I really can’t afford to let this get much worse, but I dread being down to one fully functional limb while I recover from whatever the “fix” is. I’m hoping it’s a minimally invasive arthroscopic clean out, debridment, cartilage shaving/planing surgery with no weeks of immobilization. One that I can move and rehab as much as I can stand after. I know “hope” isn’t a course of action, but I’m daring to hope anyway.

Here’s the report. Maybe I’m worried about nothing, but it doesn’t sound very cheery to me.

Findings:


Marrow: There is no bone contusion or fracture.


Acromioclavicular joint: There are severe degenerative
hypertrophic changes at the acromioclavicular joint with cystic change in the distal clavicle at the joint and bulky osteophytes extending inferiorly from the joint.


Subacromial and subdeltoid space: No significant collection of fluid in the subacromial or subdeltoid space.


Rotator cuff tendons: Tendinopathy supraspinatus tendon with low grade undersurface partial tear at the insertion site
posteriorly. Mild tendinopathy infraspinatus tendon. The
subscapularis tendon and teres minor tendon are unremarkable.


Rotator cuff muscles: Unremarkable. No atrophy or edema.


Glenoid labrum: There is a 0.6 x 0.7 x 0.9 cm para labral cyst
associated with the posterior superior glenoid labrum consistent with underlying labral tear. Possible labral tear at the junction of the anterior inferior labrum at the site of a probable small full-thickness cartilage defect.


Long head biceps tendon: Intact. Small amount of fluid within the extra-articular tendon sheath which could represent mild tenosynovitis or physiologic medication with small glenohumeral joint effusion present. Additionally, there small loose bodies/debris within the tendon sheath of the extra-articular long head biceps tendon.


Glenohumeral joint: There is mild thinning and irregularity of the glenoid cartilage with small full-thickness cartilage defect suspected at the anterior inferior glenoid labral junction. Additionally, there is full-thickness cartilage loss
anterior-inferior glenoid. There are multiple loose bodies within the inferior glenohumeral recess, the largest measuring roughly 1.2 x 0.8 x 0.6 cm. Small loose bodies are seen anterior to the glenoid, posterior to the subscapularis tendon. Additionally, there is a loose body within the subscapular recess measuring roughly 1 x 0.7 x 0.7 cm in diameter.


Incidental findings: None.